getting my hopes up...

so I think EVERY cycle I get my hopes up... this cycle has been different... different in I feel like there is actually a REAL chance of getting pregnant, on fertility friend it said I Oed on CD 8 and thats WAY early especially for me! but we bded that morning! so perfect timing! everything seems perfect... I took a hpt at 14 DPO and it was a BFN! but my temps are still fairly high (although today it did go down a little...) and as long as they stay up I'm still in it! so maybe... "symptoms" I've been having are: I'm sooooooooooooooooooooooooo tired! yesterday I had to take a nap around 1:00 pm and didn't wake up until around 6:00 pm and then I was still sooooooooooooo EXHAUSTED that I went back to sleep an hour later and didn't get up until 4:00 this morning... but that could be because of my thyroid... every once in awhile I almost throw up... but that has only happened 2 times... so its nothing... and I guess I have had heart burn once...but that seems to really be it...

I really try not to get my hopes up every month because its DEVASTATING when the witch shows her UGLY face... but its soooooooo hard not to be hopeful! when its something you want soooooooooooooooooo bad it hurts its hard NOT to be hopeful! and I sooooooooooo want this! I was talking to Mark yesterday and said you know this would be THE PERFECT time to get pregnant, because then you have a reason to give a gift to everyone telling them you are pregnant and they wouldn't suspect it! it would be AWESOME! :) but with the one BFN in my belt for this cycle already I am starting to come back down to reality... and it is ok if Im not pregnant... I will be ok... it has to happen some time right? ok thats all for now ... TTFN! :)