tomorrow is my appointment!

I go in to see my OBGYN tomorrow... and to be honest I'm anxious about it... I'm worried that she is going to say that she can't do anything more for me and send me to a RE! :( like my last doctor did... I just don't want this to be it! that my ONLY option to get pregnant is to go see a RE! and lets be honest I REALLY don't want to spend that kind of money! why is it so easy for the majority of people to get pregnant and not me? why are all of my siblings able to get pregnant and not me? I'm just in one of those moods today... frustrated that after almost 3 years of TTC I STILL don't have ANY answers!!! UGH! I wish things were different but they aren't ... and I do need to keep reminding myself that I'm soooooo blessed with all that I already have! I KNOW I am! I KNOW I couldn't get through all of this without Mark by my side holding me when I'm bawling my eyes out... and telling me he loves me! or without my Gracie girl! who tries to lick all of my tears away! or my family! the ones that I can call and tell them I'm having a really bad day and will drop everything and come get me and spend the whole day shopping with me! or my friends online that are ALWAYS there to give me a cyber hug, and who know what I'm going through! I am soooooooooooooo blessed! I LOVE YOU ALL!!! you all have been my support! my ROCK! when I'm not able to carry my load I know ALL of you are there to help me! so I guess I should say THANK YOU!!! it helps to be able to type it all down once in awhile to help get me out of that funk I guess! lol I really don't forget how much support and love I have but when I just typed it, wow it puts things in perspective! so I think I'm going to end it here! and think about what I just typed... TTFN!